B-day

Today is my 36th birthday. THIRTY-SIX! Not that I think that's old, I don't. I just think I should be 27. I used to think 21 was the perfect age - I could drink, drive (not in that order), vote, and was done with school... but then I got older, and 25 was nice - I could rent a car on my own... but my mid twenties were mostly boring - not alot of money, not alot of style, hubby worked ALOT so no social life... then I came to work at kodak.com and for the first time, most everyone else was younger (and hipper) than me... so I caught up... went out alot, began to travel alot, earned more money, learned about design and style (from my stylish Designer friends), found my talent for shopping, and had a blast... even hitting the big 3-0 wasn't painful.

My best and my worst year were one in the same, I was 33. We went to Brasil with Daniela, then later that year went to London, Scotland and Paris with Jenny & Aaron... but that was also the year Mom died.

I still have alot of fun because I have a wonderful husband, loving family, and great friends, but there's now (and will always be) that VERY big void in my life. Birthdays are bittersweet. I love celebrating, but I miss that morning phone call from Mom saying, "at this time {howevermany} years ago, I was giving birth to my beautiful baby daughter"...

So if I could pick an age to freeze at, I think I'd stick with 27. Ask me again when I'm 45 and you might get a different answer.